Why Can't I leave You

Faded shades of sky blue with sweet cologne and musk

Heavy arms, mass, weighing down from the bricks of coal sitting in your chest

Thumps, pumps, beating hot metal cooled at below 0 degrees

Vows of forbidden fruit that’s so tasteful to the lips

We vow to love and to hurt

Through manipulation and miscommunication

Til lies do us part.

But the aroma of your true love takes you away from me once more

Nature’s beauty turned grotesque,

clouds of balling fumes which chokes your lungs and you are left mummified.

I cannot speak to what I cannot grasp

And then you leave me with one phrase with a thousand possible doors.

I, of course, open the one most desirable.

"You don't care about me"

I reveal that the only way I know how.

The feeling of nothing but the grip of your hands

cocooning its way so neatly into my curves

Mouth opens and shuts into total darkness.

You are my forbidden fruit full of lyrical secretion of total nothingness

but everything that is to be this very moment.

Lyrical hummingbirds vibrating through the seams of my clothes.

And just how the days are like hours and the nights are like minutes

Is when I find that I am left with nothing but your melted body

Washing down the drain of my shower

Leaving me with that and not you

I am left with bricks from your chest

Because that’s all that falls out from your solid skin.